This is exactly how I feel right now. I wish I didn't have to sleep. School seems pointless when I could be spending time with God worshipping. That's all I want to do is pray and learn as much as I can about God or just get closer to Him. I desire Him. I can never get enough of Him. I have never been this close to God before, and it feels awesome. And I know I can be so much closer. I was going to change my major to art with a concentration in graphic design, but I know that it'll just end up more time spent away from God, and I won't be happy. I'm considering sisterhood.

So where's the brainsmush?

I don't even know where to start in picking an order/convent thing. I considered a cloister until today when Rachel (my brother's girlfriend) asked if I would be the godmother of the child when he/she's born. I said yes. I'm extremely excited. Not only do I wanna spoil the kid to death, I want to be a good godmother. In a cloister, I would only be able to pray. I know how powerful prayer is. Ancient_Scribe's prayers have transformed my life from miles and miles away. But I want to walk the child's spiritual journey with him step by step. I want to be a visual guide. I want to be there in the sense that if he come to my doorstep at 4 in the morning needing an ear or anything, I can tend to him.

Then I don't even know if I'm sure about sisterhood. I have my wonderful boyfriend Alex. He's so great. Granted, he's not Catholic, but his faith in God is growing. He has some obstacles in the way, but we all do. Even if I wasn't with him, I want a family someday. I want kids of my own to love and cherish. But I have no clue what my profession would be then. I know that it's normal for college students to change their major a few times but I don't want to be like my aunt who went to college, changed her major a few times, dropped out and went to massage therapy school only to realize she hated that.

>o< My brain being smushed.

These are my favorite Xangans. These are the people that either give good advice, have awesome blogs, or are just plain cool. If I don't list you I hate you. Not really. Sarcasm. Awww. Don't cry. I'm sorry. *maniacal laughing* Sorry. I'm delirious. Too much studying+too little sleep.


modernmelody
living_embers
ISpeakLife
Ancient_Scribe :)
NaitoOfNarnia
AlterEgo909

Three Oldest Xanga Friends
These guys aren't in chronological oder but these three people really helped me through a dark part in my life.

sheepthatsblack - I haven't talked to you in forever. I need to download AIM on the Mac.
Dommiegirl - I know you have a new username now but I always think of you as Dommiegirl.
Ancient_Scribe - Yay! You're twice on the list! You never helped in your words, but you helped in a more powerful way. You prayed for me every day. That helped me in ways you don't know of and I thought not possible. Keep praying buddy.

Anyone else have any favorite Xangans?